[Dec 2023] Kumatan CO*DE & Make

 

Hi angels! I hope you're doing well. The last few posts have been really heavy but I promise things are starting to look up because at this point in the backlog I was moving into the anger phase of my grieving process.

Though I was still sad for my loss, I was starting to get uncontrollably angry. Funny enough this was something I could work with. I could use anger and turn it into spite and that allowed me to be more like myself again because I was used to that kind of feeling. It felt kind of nice tbh, I had been so broken and sad for so long it was refreshing to have motivation and energy again.

I still wasn't going out a whole lot, mostly between homes or to banks to get things sorted. I was a little bit more comfortable doing my makeup because I wasn't crying so much during the day.

It was really cold now being in the mid of December so I thought I'd pull out my old kumatan sweater and do a little look to lift my spirits.

I was also starting to feel extra depressed about my hair. I felt like I was wanting to be brighter and happier but I couldn't escape the gloom and sorrow. I felt like I was literally drenched in it so I started doing some research. I couldn't quite dye my hair just yet but I thought maybe I could find other ways to brighten things up but I'll share more about that later (≖⩊≖)

Thanks for reading!