Hey guys, I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and New Year's. 2015 went by so fast, I honestly can't remember where half that year went haha.
I struggled a lot harder than I thought I would but thanks to the wonderful and supportive people in my life, I somehow survived it. This is going to be a pretty long post so let's get to it.
I found out my grandma has stomach cancer so November was particularly hard to get through. I took a few days off work to see her in the hospital. Unfortunately the tumor is very large and because of her old age, there isn't much we can do. I don't want to talk too much about it, but I heard from my aunt last week that she's not doing so well now so that's something I'll have to deal with in the very near future... I've already come to terms with it long ago and my family is prepared to handle the situation. It's just an unpleasant situation to go through even though it was inevitable. Life is so unbelievably temporary.
Other than that, I've just been drowning myself in work so I can avoid thinking about things haha. My social life has suffered greatly and I spend most of my days sitting at home after work just lying in bed listening to my new obsession, BIGBANG.
I'm hardly even motivated to put on a face anymore, which sucks cause I can't stand the way I look without makeup lmao. Fashion-wise I've become so boring and basic, I often find myself looking at old pictures and wondering what killed that part of me. I'm also starting to abandon circle lenses, opting for more natural looking (without the crazy patterns and enlargement) prescription ones. I still have 2 pairs of the G&G Aurora Tri-Color lenses and I'll wear them here and there, but for the most part I don't plan on wearing CL anymore.
I ordered from Desio a while back. when they had a buy 2 get 2 promo. I've been wearing these lenses every day since I got them. I'll do a full review post later but so far I'm really liking them, they're really comfortable and the color payoff is amazing.
I didn't do much for the holidays. Like I said, I worked a lot and most of my friends were busy with family anyways. We had a team holiday party at work and that was the extent of my celebrations, apart from family dinner.
It was kind of sad and lonely, but I'm grateful for the time I did get to spend with my friends when they were free. My friend Jeremy from Calgary visited again this year and we had hotpot.
I got some super thoughtful gifts and they really made my holiday this year. Special shoutout to Kim and my Senpai for being sweethearts and surprising me with these amazing gifts ;^;
I still cry every time when I wake up and see Aomine on my desk. Fuck. I can't wait to own the rest of the Generation of Miracles. I gave out quite a few thoughtful gifts myself and overall, I'd say Christmas was tolerable. New Year's Eve was a whole other kind of awful lol.
Bonus clip of me unrolling my new GD&TOP poster:
I spent Christmas day with my mom and sister. We had a nice dinner at her bf's daughter's place. There was so much food left over, it was insane. Props to people who can make dinners like this for every big holiday. I don't think I'd ever be able to put something like this together haha.
Some pictures of my makeup for that night:
New Year's Eve and New Year's Day weren't great for me so I won't talk about it. I don't do resolutions, but this year I've resolved to be more secure. I spent most of 2015 pretty unhappy and I really want that to change. I'm going to learn to be more secure emotionally and mentally, meaning I'll take more time for myself and learn to say no to people/things. I want to try and be more secure in my looks too since I really hated myself, especially the last few months.
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| Me and my sister |
With all this death and sadness looming over me in the last couple months, I also thought about all the things I wanted to do with my life. I was always a relatively simple person. I never had grand plans for my future but I manged to come up with some dreams and goals I hope to accomplish in the next 5 years (in no particular order):
- See BIGBANG in concert with my Senpai
- Travel to Korea/Japan/Hong Kong with friends/Senpai
- Pay off my student loan
- Buy a car
- Move up into a leadership role at work
5 years is a long time and a lot can change, but I know that if I work hard enough I can definitely accomplish everything I listed.
Okay, so I'm going to wrap this post up with something positive: a brand new gyaru improvement meme! I made a few adjustments to Lizzie's template so that it was easier for me to read (I just added a pattern and gave the font an outline lol). You can see my previous ones here.
I think I changed a lot this year. My makeup was so sloppy in the earlier half of the year lmao. I sort of fell out of gal makeup in June/July and November, but I'm glad I bounced back.
I've been doing that inner point thing again (I feel like I say that a lot LOL). I think I got it down and now it's one of those habit things I do. I can't do my makeup without it orz. I didn't do anything really interesting this year other than straighten out my brows.... quite literally. No more exaggerated lower lashes like the previous year. I line my lower waterline pretty tightly and I've ditched the circle lenses.
Overall I'm actually pretty happy with my progress this year. September was probably my favorite look. I was sort of torn about my brows but I think the less arched style makes me look less scary lmfao. My resting bitch face game is way too strong.
Anyways, thank you all so much for following me and reading all the nonsense I spew here. I hope 2016 is kind to you and that you accomplish everything you set out to. Let's kick some ass this year.
